So here I am. Six months until my wedding day and 35 pounds heavier than I would like to be. I love that it took a year to lose 40 and six months to gain most of it back.
I told myself that I could do whatever I wanted over Christmas (which included a lot of food, but also walks which made me feel a bit better) but come January I needed to be back at it.
It's not even entirely about the wedding. Sure, I have the prettiest dress ever made and I want to be smokin' hot, but it's more about how I feel. And how I know I CAN feel. I can try on one outfit and feel good, instead of trying on half a dozen and feeling mediocre. I can feel strong after exercising, instead of feeling like a soft mess.
I started learning how to run, and then winter came. I'm not really all about breaking my ankle, so I stopped. Our basement is pulled apart and the treadmill has been pushed into a corner. The exercise bike is shoved into another room. The couch is pulled away from the wall which leaves no exercise room.
I'm full of excuses, I know. But I'm also full of homemade vegetable soup, and a salad with chicken, which I just had for lunch. I know I can do it again, and I have a time goal in mind. If it doesn't happen before July 9, it's not the end of the world. It's a life-long process and the wedding is just one magnificent day. And at the end of that day, I will be married to D and it will happen no matter how much I weigh, and with or without sunshine.
Like I said, I'm back. With or without readers, this blog helped me before so I'm going to try to keep up with it.
One great thing I did was quit smoking, 3 months ago today. I feel fantastic about that, and I can't wait to get healthy without that little storm cloud hanging over my head.
Love, Peace, and Salads,
PennieLane
Love you HT.
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